Nicole Lee August 13th, 2008

Nothing much seems important to me right now. I wanted to do my LATU video on Monday, but then…I didn’t. I just couldn’t find anything to say, my answers were shallow and superficial and I had so little desire to my face on the screen that I couldn’t even force myself to do it. It’s actually really frustrating to want to do something so badly, but…not be able to.

A lot of bad news reared its ugly head in the last three or four days. Things that no one wants to have to know about or try to help carry their friends through. I feel like I’ve been a bad friend lately. I work a lot, and I want to be there for the people that I care about, but it seems when they might need me most I’m just not there. I’m hoping that when the slow season hits at the Resort I’ll be able to have late nights out and go and do young stupid things with the people that I want to be with. I hope, I hope, I hope.

I registered for two classes today. My folks are paying for both, thankfully, or I never would have been able to do it. I’m taking a Business Law class and then Photography I. Dad is sending me his old film camera, which I am really, really excited for. It should be a lot of fun to mess around with. I can’t wait to learn more about the hobby I’ve already invested so much time and money into, you know?

I guess I’m searching for some new motivation. I want to lose weight, get my hair longer again, go to school and feel like I’ve accomplished something, if that makes any sense. I mean, I’m successful enough to get by right now, but I want to be able to buy new camera lenses and go to Thailand, and the way I’m living right now is just not suitable for that sort of thing. So I’ll work hard to make the changes I want to make and be the person that I want to be, and that’s all I can ask from myself. And I feel alright with that, I think. Yeah, I feel alright.

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Nicole Lee May 7th, 2008

Sara, Kat and I had a lovely picnic yesterday (see Sara’s photos here). Then I picked up all four books in The Enchanted Forest Chronicles so we could read them aloud. We also started playing Silent Hill 2, which is awesome!

Other than that? Nothing is happening, and that’s okay by me. =)

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Nicole Lee April 22nd, 2008

Today was good. Firstly, I banned a certain someone from my site. I have no idea what she was hoping to find, but I know that there’s is no way she’ll find it here. So to save us all a lot of heart ache I just went ahead and did what was necessary. I know she’ll be upset about it, but honestly now, it was getting a little crazy to see her hit five or ten times in a single day, you know? So I feel good about it, and I think it’s good for all of us.

Also, meet Ifrit, my new mp3 player. I bought it so I’d have something to run with. It’s a two gig, red, Sansa. It’s got a clip, so I can hook it to myself while I’m working out, which will be really, really helpful. The best part is that with my friend’s employee discount and my gift card the whole thing came to about twenty-five dollars, which is sweet. It also had a two year service plan, so if anything happens to it, they’ll replace it. Rawk!

Then we rented this amazingly cute game called Cooking Mama Cook Off for the Wii and Kat, Jarren and I have been playing for hours. It’s absolutely wonderful and I encourage everyone to go and find it. Then fall in love and tell me, and the rest of the world, all about it. =D

Finally I spent some good time with a great friend of mine who moved to Washington this past fall. It was really great to see him, and I’m glad we got to spend some time together. You know, sometimes you just don’t realize how important people/things are until they’re gone. Not that he’s gone, per se, but being on the other side of the country makes hanging out a little difficult, you know?

So overall, today was a great day. =)

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Nicole Lee April 1st, 2008

Kiki and I convinced Sara that Superman died in Superman Returns. It was epic. =O

Now we are sitting down to watch Hitman, and then are heading for our run. Rawk.

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